Friday!

The past two days have been crazy and stressful..yes I broke the diet A LITTLE, took some walks and did a lot of work.  Sorry for the delay in writing :)

Back on track tomorrow, hopefully.

Day 3 - DONE

So today was another one of those crazy days and the diet was as follows....protein bar, Quiznos flatbread classic club with honey mustard, tomatoes, lettuce, pickles and a bag of baked chips, dinner was a bowl of lettuce with sun dried tomato vinaigrette, a klondike bar, and a yogurt...so I left out one thing..something I did not think would be a bad thing but I had a fruit and yogurt parfait with granola from chick fil a...this thing was SO sweet it had to be bad for me...however this was RIGHT before I went to the gym and did my GROOVE class...it is so much fun we just get out there and dance and shake and have fun :)

After researching the parfait it was only 240 calories and 5 grams of fat HOWEVER it had 47grams of carbs 36 grams of sugar and 7 grams of protein  I still think that the gym took care of that.

I had to work for a few hours yesterday too at a volunteer job which was a lot of fun, on my feet all day so I actually felt really good by the time the day was over!

Today is a no gym day though because I have other obligations..I hate missing the gym but sometimes you have other things to do.  Maybe I can get in a walk at some point.

I noticed a problem that I have though.  When I know that I am going somewhere, my brain automatically starts to think...hmmm, what am I going to get as a snack, or lunch or whatever.  Usually it would have been starbucks to get a coffee and doughnut or something equally as satisfying, or find chick fil a so I can have french fries and all of that yumminess. However, I hear myself stop and say NO NO NO, you are writing this blog to show that you can be strong and make better choices. I may not eat a lot of vegetables and fruit but I hope to get better about that.

Stay strong and have a great day!

Day 2 - done

Well, I did get on the elliptical today for about 30 minutes and did my ab workout :)
I did have a good moment today -
     I was at Borders bookstore and this is my FAVORITE place to get a Grande decaf non fat white Chocolate Mocha and something from the treat box, usually an old fashioned doughnut.  So, there I was standing in line waiting my turn and I was like "what the hell are you doing, you are still an apple" AND I LEFT WITH NOTHING!!! I was SO proud of myself. Coffee and treats have become my go to foods so walking away today was a HUGE triumph!
I had a lean cuisine pizza, later a yogurt, then dinner was a small salad with a sweet potato, I chicken tender  cooked in olive oil, and later a weight watchers candy bar ice cream thingy...oh and some cheese its with my standard glass of non fat milk with sugar free chocolate syrup.

I feel myself being motivated, I feel like I am headed toward a goal even though I refuse to set one.  My goal...to get my sexy back! I could say "I want to lose 30 pounds", "I want to wear a size 4" but wanting those things makes me very superstitious.  Sometimes you get what you ask for and not the way you want it...for example a bad illness, someone passes away and you go into a depression...so no making those kind of goals...

what is YOUR goal? Do you want your sexy back? Only YOU can find it!

Another reason I really got started on this blog is because I was watching the Doctors on August 11, 2010 on TV and Mr. PLastic surgery showed a woman that looked JUST LIKE ME and he said "If your body looks like this after kids the only way to get your body back is plastic surgery" SCREW YOU MR DOCTOR!! I want this really bad and I am going to get there without the surgery!

So, until tomorrow!

Day 2

Up and ready to go today....the only problem is, I have a hurt knee but at least there are other things that I can work out besides doing cardio.  I have just had my yummy Special K strawberry protein bar and I am just waiting to get everyone ready to leave the house.

Last night I did end up having a cup of peaches and also a cup of green tea with honey. I am excited that I have you guys (even though there is no one following this)to talk to.  It really helps.

My husband is so busy that I feel bad talking to him about things like this, sex is once a month at best but that is because of me and my self conscious ways.  I am just counting down the days until I can just strip down in front of my husband and be very sexy like I was before.

I have also started reading a great book it is called "Body Clutter" by the fly lady Marla Cilley. If you are reading my blog..you need to read this book.  I was SHOCKED how chapter one (only about 6 pages) described me to a T...CRAZY, go now, get it...read it!

So - what is on my play list?
I start off with "I gotta feeling" by the Black Eye Peas and tell myself all of the time this is going to be a great day -

Then I move on to Flo Rida - Right Round...SO FUN
Rhianna is next - Pon de REplay

Those are some of my favorites...when it comes to abs then
Womanizer by Brittany Spears and just for fun NKOTB - Hangin Tough gets me through now this is 8 minutes of NON STOP abs...legs up, legs down, twist, whatever keeps me going...

Well, now I need to get going - you know I will right more later

Day 1 - done!

Ok- so I went to the gym and climbed onto the Elliptical (which I hate), and did 1.5 miles in 40 minutes.  Then I cranked up some tunes and did crunches through 2 songs..WHEW So, an hour work out...pretty good :)

After the gym I had my slim fast and did some shopping and walking.  Lunch was Subway 6 inch ham and turkey, provolone cheese, pickles, lettuce, spinach, honey mustard, tomatoes and S&P.  Snack was a Yoplait yogurt, which I think are incredibly too sweet and non fat milk with sugar free chocolate syrup (8oz glass).

Dinner I had a small salad and one slice of pizza...dessert weight watchers frozen candy bar.

So, that's it for today!! Tomorrow...day 2

Today is the day

Ok - to start this day I am drinking a bottle of water first thing, I have taken two Advil so my knee will be happy and I am fixing to eat my special K protein bar.

I am posting this picture so you can see where I am starting from. Most days I still feel pregnant.  Then there is the back flab , and the thighs.  You get the point! So....

Just so you all know where I am starting from I am 5' 8" and I am 166 pounds...to most people they say "you look great" but they do not see what I see...ALL of that extra baby weight FLAB that just hangs there from having two babies!!  Keep in mind my youngest is 3. It HAS to go, it makes me not feel sexy, or confident.  I am determined to get my sexiness back!

Sure, having a tummy tuck would be the best things but I want to prove that you do not need one to get back into shape!

More updates to come - need to go eat my protein bar!

Help! I am an Apple!

So, here I am at the gym and I look in the mirror and I get a GREAT glance of my apple shaped body..where the hell did this come from? The more that I try to eat better, the worse I do.  Here I am sitting and writing this and thinking about a snack that I would like to have.  I am a stress eater.  I get stressed and I start looking for food, anything...or, I find an excuse to get to starbucks and have a drink there.  I want to workout, I want to lose weight but I always seem to feel defeated...how do I move forward?



Starting tomorrow, I am moving forward! I will blog my food, weight and all of that nice stuff for everyone to see from here on out...great. I have to start somewhere and maybe if I can find others that are in the same situation I am in, maybe I can move on!


I lost 25 pounds a year ago and I was 15 pounds from my goal weight and then life happened, we moved and life started to take over and now I have all of that weight back now.  


So...away we go....tomorrow!